Today I took a time of silence just to look back on
my life and to see what happened to me. I looked back on the road of my life
and I saw that there are two roads that are leading to where I am currently
standing. I could not understand this.
The one road is twisty and go through canyons, over
cliffs and it seems that it is a road that no sane man will travel. The other
road is a road that looks like a highway. It is straight and flat, but it is
also very, very narrow.
I asked God why is there two roads that only
converge a little way from where I am standing. God answered me and said that
the one road - the twisty difficult road, is the road that I chose to walk.
This road is so difficult and so dangerous because I did not heed God's word. I
sinned and the devil led me on this twisty road.
As I looked at the twisty road, I started seeing
road-signs all along the way, representing the things that I have done in my
past. How shocked, horrified and ashamed was I to see all the bad things that I
have said, that I have done, that I have thought of.
I can see where I went over cliffs, the places
where I have fallen and stumbled and where I got hurt so badly that it seemed
impossible to live. There were also places where it seemed impossible for me to
have survived the road that I was traveling.
It was really a horrific road. Sometimes there was
no road at all and I wondered what happened during those times in my travels on
this difficult road. I asked God and He said with a smile in His voice,
"Son that is where the devil let go of you and I caught you, I carried
you."
I said, but how is it still possible that if I was
walking with and following the devil that You where still there for me. He said
to me "It is because I love you and I will never stop loving you,
regardless of your sins."
I looked with amazement to this horrible road and
wondered how it happened that I ended up traveling this dangerous road. As if
God knew what was on my mind, He said, "Son your choices was not always
right and you had to learn, I gave you freedom to do as you wanted and was
hoping that you would learn from your choices."
I shrieked in my body and soul, because the sign
posts next to the road showed so clearly the choices that I have made. There
was no doubt in my mind that all these choices was very far removed from what
God had in mind for me and what He had planned for my life.
I asked God about the narrow road that is flat and
straight and He said to me, "Son that is the road that I had planned for
you and which you choose not to walk for so long. I was willing to lead you and
show you all the riches that I had in my stores for you."
I wondered just how much I have missed in life by
trying to follow my own road. I looked at the place where the two roads converge
and my twisty and dangerous road meet with the narrow, straight road, it was
only a very, very short distance from where I was standing at this moment.
Again, before I could ask God about this, He
answered me and said, "Son you started praying, you started leaving the
choices in My hands. You started trusting me and you started believing in the
power of what I can do. I was hoping that you would come to Me and look at My
road."
" All it took was for you, to start asking Me
for the things in your life that you wanted and trusting Me enough with those
things. I am burning to release My full flood of riches onto you, to give you
far more than you could ever ask for or dream of! You must remember that it was
YOUR choice to travel your own road, I was always there, but you never trusted
Me, you never asked Me to help you."
" You where the one that went of on the
difficult road with all the dangers and My road was there all along. It was up
to you to come back to Me, because I never left you, it was you who left Me.
There, where the roads converge, that is when you came back to Me, that was
when you gave up on trying to be the leader in your own life, when you realized
that on your own power you are not getting anywhere and you are not achieving
anything meaningful in your life, when you stopped relying on your own power.
" That was when you said to me that I must
take control of your life and lead you according to what I, your Father, has
planned for you. I was waiting so long for you to just start asking Me for
guidance, I wanted to take your hand everyday, but if you did not allow me and
trust me, I could not do that."
I could only stand in amazement on what happened
since the two roads converge. I could see the drastic change and the things
that came my way since traveling God's way. I decided there and then that
without God in my life, I do not want to live another day. I started
understanding what God, my Father had in store for me and it is so simple. I
just need to trust Him with everything and I must ask Him for it.
The simplicity of this only started sinking in and
I now know that without God in my life, life is not worth living. I vowed that
never again will I rely on my own strengths, never again will I doubt in what
God has promised each and every one of us. I vowed to keep on looking for God's
will in my life and to get to know Him a lot better! God is my King and Savior,
how about yours?
Copyright © 1998 Chris Putter ---
South Africa
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